The moment we begin to fear the opinions of others and hesitate to tell the truth that is in us, and from motives of policy are silent when we should speak, the divine floods of light and life no longer flow into our souls. Elizabeth Cady Stanton
The truth within you.
You are not selfish if you listen to that truth. Selfish happens, not always a good way to go, not a goal.
But; if you are acting in your highest and best good, if you are convinced you are in grace, that is not up to others. That is your dharma, your journey, your only choice.
It’s easy to make fun of those who try to “find themselves,” as if listening to your soul is a very “California” thing. If you listen to your own truth, be prepared for that misunderstanding, for some ridicule, for the accusation that you are “doing whatever the heck you want.” The accusations are not your problem.
You get one shot, that we know of, in your body, one chance to do what you came here to do. To choose to find your truth, to choose to find your mission is the healthiest and most sane thing you can do, not an act of craziness.
It is not selfish to release your beast.
From the first breath you take in the morning on, everything you do is a choice. You choose to live, so why stop there? Choose to live a full life that engages you. It can be trite to say “I deserve happiness,” (you do) it implies rolling in a field of daisies with sunshine and lollipops and rejecting your obligations. Would that make you happy? Happiness might include your obligations or finding completion in them before moving on.
It’s possible, for you, that happiness means having a sense of purpose, feeling like you make a difference, knowing that you are on a mission. You might be fulfilled by helping others, by making a bunch of cash, by painting after your day job. That’s your choice.
There’s nothing wrong with choosing to live a life that engages you. Nothing wrong with deciding that tolerating is not the same as living.
Have you listened to that voice that speaks when no one else is in the room?
What is the truth that is in you?